Define Me Simplicity.

MMU iv

2011-08-25T10:23:00.000-07:00

So last weekend was the MMU Ramadhan Debate.CFS sent 4 teams.CFS 1 (Harris & Farhana) and CFS 2 (Hazim & I) managed to break.Unfortunately we lost in quarters.Gaaaahh, they just had to give us a motion on economics.damn it T.T But it was pleasant news to find out that I made it into the top 10 Best Speakers List (coming in at no.7) And might I add that the Razzaq from SDAR got no.8. Not bad at all for a kid that has a bright future ahead of him.Furthermore, him & Irfan got into semis.Goes to show just how beneficial it is to enter tons of these open debates.The more u enter, the better u get with experience.And this also states that just coz ur a school kid or u havent debated in awhile, doesnt mean that u cant go far.Chill sudahh.Anything can happen when u atleast try :) But overall, the champion of the tournament was team Wolfson.This team from Singapore.congrats to them, and as fr us Malaysians, well, we know we can do better ;)

xo

All The Hunnys Makin Money, Throw Your Hands Up at Me

2011-08-25T10:17:00.000-07:00

"no more drama in my life, no one's gonna make me cry"

ladies, it aint easy being independent.but its so worth it.

Never apologize for not wanting to compromise your principles.
if anyone tries to bring u down along the process, keep your head help up high.
Dont go dissing them out on others or the internet, coz u know ur momma taught u better than that ;)

xo

:)

2011-07-27T08:29:00.000-07:00

Who wouldve thought that a genuine smile was all it took to make me feel so good.and the irony of it is that it was all caused by tiniest act of comfort given by people :}

Well considering as to how crappy my days have been.It's safe to say that today was bliss for me.Put aside the fact that I had ICT & Islamic Legal History exams earlier on during the day.
It started off with good news and ended with even better news.the day just kept on getting better :') Ohh and ofcourse, this is the part where I gladly wish my dear brother, the only sibling I have which came from the same mother & father as me, a happy 21st birthday! haha.So yea ; HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG!! love u loads (only when you're not being an ass) :D tons of sloppy kisses and big hugs.LOL

xo

RASCALS DID US PROUD!!

2011-07-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

IT IS WITHIN MY GREATEST PLEASURE TO ANNOUNCE TO YOU THE CHAMPION OF THE
ASIANS SCHOOLS DEBATING CHAMPIONSHIP 2011 ROOKIE CATEGORY :
SEKOLAH SERI PUTERI (TEAM A)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:))))))))))))

CONGRATULATIONS GUYS!!! :')
we are all so very proud of you.You guys have really made it.Im glad that this day has finally come to you guys, where you finally get to see the happiness that makes all the hard work worth it.I know 1st hand of what its like to feel like you've done everything you can to win.But for some reason, its just not working.Victory just seemed so far away.It makes you wonder if its time to give up.I felt that.the feeling that winning was so close yet so far.It even felt impossible sometimes.Looking at all those winners walking up on stage, full of pride as they reach for the trophy.I kept thinking to myself, "wow.why is that not happening to me??", and sulk away.But then it occurred to me, that nobody gets to walk up that stage without having to go through some shits first.If its not my turn yet, then maybe its God's way of telling me that I havent quite done enough yet in order to deserve it.So he gave it to someone else who better fits the title.So with more tears & disappointments & fake smiles, i just had to bare with it.we all had to bare with it.We just needed to continue supporting ourselves and also one another.Coz thats what being part of the Rascals is all about.Its not just about debate, its also about growing up as an individual, debater and a family.Ofcourse in order to win you need to have that drive that pushes you that extra mile.That mentality that keeps you going has to be there in you.You cant give up.because you're already half way there.Dont stop, or else you'll never know what its like to be a champion.
Look, moral of the story is that you guys very well know how hard it is to get where you are.So please, never forget your roots.Know that nothing is for free, and if you guys ever have to come across more challenges in the future, its part of the package for a bigger success.And above all else, win or lose, you'll always have us #sspRascals

Now come back safely from Korea.And run to Meor and thank him!!
we'll be waiting ;)

much love.

IIU Interschool & UKM IV

2011-07-25T06:28:00.000-07:00

So for those of you who dont know what went down during the IIUM Interschool Debating Championship 2011.SDAR & Islam Hidayah were the finalists.With a split decision, the win went to Islam Hidayah.And the one that made us all proud, was when Lil bro Acai was announced as the Overall Best Speaker! Im so proud of him.Not only for getting the award but also because I see him maturing as an individual throughout this tournament.And thats what all this should be about.Its not just about winning these tournaments.But its also about having fun and maturing as a debater.Couldnt have been happier for him :')

As for UKM IV, well CFS sent 4 teams.

CFS 1 : Saddiq & Fakhry
CFS 2 : Kamal & myself
CFS 3 : Hazim & Harris
CFS 4 : Amnah & Audi

Three of the CFS teams managed to break and proceed to quarters.Unfortunately CFS 1 & 2 lost in quarters and CFS 3 lost in semis.Regardless, im glad we atleast got to break.But the again, our aim shoulndnt be to just break.Oh well, heres to all the hard work we'll be doing in hopes of doing great for Taylors & KLOC.

One thing i also realized besides the debate aspect of this whole cfs debate family.Well, i realized that they really are starting to feel like a genuine family to me.They can literally make me forget about all my problems by just being there.All the inside jokes, crazy laughter, comfort and ipad game playing.Haha, conclusion is they're awesome lah :B

xo

Things Are Looking Up

2011-07-07T03:57:00.001-07:00

makes me think that all this may be worth while after all :)

Selections went well.alhamdulillah.Made in into the 2nd team because this time around its BP style.I hope things only get better after this.But ofcourse nobody said that the trying should stop here.As a matter of fact the pressure starts here! haha.Neverthe less, im still lovin how things worked out.

Ohh and Dzul went off to Korea for Australs.sooo ;

GOOD LUCK! :D ALL THE BEST.
DEBATE YOUR ASS OFF OVER THERE.DONT LET THIS OPPORTUNITY SLIP :)

TAKE CARE

Im heading home tomorrow.I think this weekend i wont go out too much.I just wanna laze around at home, stay in bed and watch tv with adik :')

fact of the day ; I wont repeat my highschool mistakes.Bitch, u aint got nothing on me.

Self Lovin

2011-07-01T01:50:00.000-07:00

thats what im doing this weekend.
Im not gonna stress.Imma fill this weekend with smiles, laughter and let the music sooth my soul.Im done crying and breaking down.I gotta pull myself together, and get right back into the race.For those of you who tried to prey on my while i was in my fragile state, times up.

Selections is this sunday.Cant let the opportunity pass.
Process of detaching all forms of emotions starts ; now.

tonight's plan is to chill with Zati and Zatil.cravings for bbq chicken.Haha.And its straight to the movies right after.Dyen was suppose to tag along but due to some cfs related complications she cant :/ bummer.

taken right after we left the hall on the last day of spm 2010 :D

a picture tribute to dyens absence.cehh, as if im not gonna see you anymore.padahal jumpa everyday T.T

xo

Transitions

2011-06-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

alot happened over the weekends.I went down over to KDU for the annual KID BP.The rascals were there and so were the rest of the cfs clan.I went there with the intentions of wanting to observe and help out the girls.But eventually I had to judge on the final day.And trust me being a chair adj when u have panels and trainees for a BP tournament is NOT easy -.- haha.man i miss last year's KID BP, it was mine and qhem's last school tournament.Im glad we atleast made it to the finals.but that was then, this is now.its funny to be on the other side.I just hope that one day the girls will be able to do us proud by being on that stage aswell :') chin up guys.defeat is part of your journey otw up.

So yea thats the debate aspect of my weekend.And then theres that little, ok im lying, big change that happened over the weekend.im not about to put it all out in detail over here.but point is, this change definitely devastated me.screwed up my thoughts and emotions.probably still is screwing me over as we speak.But yea, all i can say is that i need to just keep reminding myself that its just a feeling.I'll get over it.i'll be fine.and im sure he'll be too.we're strong people.we're cool liddat.heh.we just realized that one can only be too similar to the other till it gets abit too much.we just need to give it some time.

right?

oh godd *jumps off building feeling sorry for myself* T.T

i guess this is the part where i detach all forms of emotion i have and just focus on college and debate.selections are this weekend! gulp.

fact of the day : when all else fails and u seek for escape.always, always turn to ur iPod.

CFS IIUM

2011-06-20T04:36:00.000-07:00

whoa it has been ages since i last updated my blog!

Well here it is, im currently living the life of a foundation student taking up Law in CFS IIUM, PJ.
Orientation week to be frank was just plain boring!! like seriously, we literally had nothing to do.it was just talk, talks and more talks.But then again comparing to the hell some of my friends had to go through with their orientation in their respective unis, Im kinda grateful that ours wasnt that torturous.However, I admit i was feeling kinda lonely, not because i had nobody to talk to.I mean tons of people came up to me.But fact is, I still am holding on to the life and comfort i had with my usuals.And dreaming about Zati, My, Hills, Hani and Chmal on my 1st night here, did not help at all! :'( To add to that u'd think that jumping straight into debate would make me feel better.But no, it didnt.It made me feel even more weird.because it all just felt so foreign having to walk in to a debate meeting and not seeing qhem and the rest of the rascals there :'( i was crushed. and ofcourse theres always that factor of people looking at me like im some kind of alien.I get it, I look different, I stick out like a sore thumb -.- Haihh

But now that classes have started, things are gradually falling into place.Im meeting people that i can sorta click with.(yess im gonna try and get rid of this whacko attractor vibe that i bring *inside joke* ) Im also starting to feel the love in the debate family :) I guess things are getting better.I just hope that God will continue to be kind to me as i face these challenges of a new environment.

More to come!

xo

HKSBP 2011

2011-05-28T03:53:00.001-07:00

it went on from the 23rd till 26th of June at TKC, Seremban.

It was quite the road trip for me, zati and dania.And we were then joined by Sham and Wani :D ok since i dont have much time to write.lemme juz cut straight to the chase.

The SSP BM debaters made it to the quarters if im not mistaken.so proud of them :)
The SSP English Debaters (RASCALS) made it to the octo-finals.We lost against the host, TKC.
The SSP Basketballers (SCUD) made it to quarters aswell if im not mistaken.

If theres any misinfo here, my deepest apologies.I was too busy keeping track of the rascals.And though they didnt manage to make it that far, Im still proud of them.U guys are a new team and u guys broke.And its not as if u guys juz rolled over and gave the win to your opponents just like that.U werent gonna go down without a fight.And thats all that matters aite.Trust me hunnys a great debater isnt made without having to go through a great fall.And as Meor said, if you're not big enough to lose then you're not big enough to win.Keep your heads up high and move forward from this.Dont repeat the same mistakes.you guys can do it.And you know that we are all here willing to help u guys out in any way possible.we are all a team and above all, we are family.much love.

And since we're back to reality now.gulp.college starts on monday.so to whoever it is thats taking law in UIA cfs pj there, see u.dont be shy, come over and say hi :)

xo

Support the Universal Declaration on Animal Welfare

2011-05-17T08:02:00.000-07:00

dear friends and family, we are all aware that animal cruelty has been going on.And though they are creatures that cannot voice out their rights.They still feel pain and can suffer.So please help end this cruelty by doing your part and sign this petition :)

http://www.spca.org.my/v51/petitions.php

Be A Part of The Movement

For a global problem you need a global solution. Agreement on the importance of an issue affects people's attitudes, and people's attitudes affect their actions.

Please circulate the petition to friends, family, colleagues, school mates or just anyone you think cares about the plight of animals in the world today.Improving animal welfare can also improve the welfare of people relying on these animals. Over a billion people directly rely on animals around the world for their livelihoods.

Help us achieve global recognition that animals matter. We seek 10 million signatures to let the governments of the world know we are serious about animal welfare.

Not So Cool After All Huh

2011-05-13T10:13:00.000-07:00

You may think that I'm a zero
But dude, everyone you wanna be probably started off like me
Push me up against the locker
All I'll do is shake it off, and getcha back when I'm your boss
I'm not thinking 'bout you haters
'Cause hey, I could be a superstar, I'll see you when you wash my car

All of the dirt you've been throwin my way
It ain't so hard to take
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin my name
And I'll just look away.That's right

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Keep it up and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be,
A loser like me!

;)

30th April 2011

2011-05-02T03:54:00.001-07:00

kayh eventhough the date stated above is like 2 days ago, but still.i dont see why i still cant make a lil bday shout out to lil bro, faisal a.k.a Acai, haha.Happy 16th birthday kiddo :) all the best wishes.much love

xo

29th April 2011

2011-04-29T11:37:00.000-07:00

Wow, its been awhile huh.I have so much to say.but currently im just so tired.

well lets start off with Justin Bieber's concert on the 21st of April 2011.It was good.I mean it was fun and all, I enjoyed it.but i must admit i was kinda waiting fr the climax of the concert.but it never came -.- Though having Joel Madden on the show was a pleasant surprise.But still nothing that excited me too much.

Then a few days later along comes this day.HEHE.It was such an exciting day!

1)The Royal Wedding ; I mean did u see Kate's dress? it was simply to die for!! Mcqueen did an excellent job.bravo.It was all just so perfect.Definitely history in the making.So happy for Kate and Prince William :) I kinda missed out on the live action cause i was busy getting ready for the Maroon 5 concert.But needless to say I saw pics and am currently watching the reruns on E.David beckham looks extra yummy at the wedding.But nothing compared to Prince Harry.So jealous of his girlfriend, that Chelsea girl.GRRRR.Oh well, atleast there's still hope.They aint married ryte? :P

2)Maroon 5 concert ; IT WAS AWESOMEEEEE!!!!!! no offence to the jb lovers out there.But damnnn M5 just trashed jb's concert weiiii! they killed that stage.and i was so happy cause they performed all of my fav songs :') and Adam was delicious as always.And well they for one were no strangers to making the crowd feel appreciated.They really rocked the night away :D Dania, Dzul, Aidil and Myself absolutely enjoyed ourselves.

xo

Unanswered

2011-04-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

Remembering back a phone call i had with a close friend.and the sharing of thoughts.I Suddenly just felt like writing about the feelings of those who know what its like to not pass their exams with flying colours.

And in this case, SPM.

1st of all i just wanna make it clear that there are people out there who are still not ready to share their results with the world.As of now they are only willing to share with certain hearts.So for those of you who still pester them, be it because you aced the exam or ur just over ur sulking phase, give space alright.Cut them some slack.different individuals face difficulties differently.So dont even begin on the whole "laaaa.... *fit in name* lepak je.results dia pun tkdela gempak mane" speech.because whoever that is u are talking about is an entire different person.When your friend is ready to tell you, he will.But pressuring him isnt gonna make u any better of a person.

If I were them, telling me "oh i wont judge" isnt gonna make drastic changes aswell.Because, well, I'll be the judge of that.And if to my eyes u do end up as a judgemental jerk.Then whos gonna have to suffer? u or me? me.get the picture and the choices people alike have to make.

And for those of you who are out there enjoying the misfortune of others.my reply to that is, fuck it.all the sudden now ur saying stuff like "lah buat penat je dia ok in *fit in achievement* tp results slack".cause u know what, for passing with flying colours i congratulate u.for whatever satisfying result that u got, im more than happy for you.but thats not the issue.the issue is having to make someone feel smaller just so u can feel bigger.its.....sad really.cause wen u come to think of it.ur THAT small huh? that u have to make others feel smaller just so u can for once feel better about yourself.

Theres no denying that ur good results will bring u opportunities.but what then? in college? in work? the whole journey till death? i doubt a bunch of examination papers are what it takes to get you through.its times like this that you really have to buck up your game.if i were you, i'd watch my back.because that awesome friend of yours that didnt get fantastic results, is gonna get back on track.All the results did to him was just create a slight bump along his path.Blink, and before you know it he'll go right back to being better than you.

Im not being bitter to those of you who have succeeded.because if you're like my friends who did well in their exams.who worked their asses off and gave ultimate devotion.then i know you deserve the blessing.and that you're not included in the category of selfish people im talking about.
Im reffering to those who are just a huge pain in the ass.

and finally, to dear mates out there who share the hard times and have these insecure losers as friends blabbering away.u should tell them, "SHUT UP ASSHOLE! IM A FUCKING ROCKSTAR!!"

HAHAHA.love you all.
yours truly.

fact of the day : if u wanna know my results.come ask me personally.but hoping for a little understanding when i say, i may not tell u straight away.because like u, who has the right to be curious & ask.As, how i have my rights to choose who i tell :) lovess

If I Had The Voice Of an Angel

2011-04-12T09:30:00.000-07:00

Only once in a lifetime love rushes in
Changing you with the tide
And dawn's ribbon of light
Bursts through the dark
Wakening you inside
And I thought it was all untrue
Until there all at once I knew

With no beginning and
Without an end
You are the one for me
And it's evident
And your eyes told me so
And your eyes let me know

When I saw you
I could not breathe
I fell so deep
When I saw you
I'd never be the same

fact of the day : i'd sing this to you :')

On The Bright Side

2011-04-10T10:10:00.000-07:00

Life isnt all about you.the fact that you think you're cooler than other people.haha.so cute.tsk tsk, so much more to learn.
I get that you're hurtin right now.but i hate to break this to you sweetie, but you had it coming.you used to laugh it off when you were the reason heartbreaks were happening everywhere.And now Karma decides to pay you a little visit.And im sorry, but my little comment was just too tempting to resist.sorry sweets, islythough.heh

what a mind clearing evening.

ohh tomorrow out fr more shopshopshop time with the girlies.ohh but must remember to save money at the same time :) haha

fact of the day : btwayy God, it was nice of us to catch up.needed the H2H talk.

Your Bottled Emotions

2011-04-05T02:34:00.000-07:00

bitch all you want.because seriously, its not hurting me.that moment of hate and anger has passed.ive moved on.and incase ur wondering ; moving on doesnt have to mean accepting somebody back.It just means ur ready to forgive & forget.and thats exactly what im doing.Forgive myself for being stupid, and forget u ever existed :) its now only hurting you.holding on to so much hate, i cant help but wonder why do u torture urself? because i dont hate you.i just think its better if we stay out of each others lives.Now can we get back to our usual daily routines? thank you.

Cat Got Your Tongue

2011-04-05T02:15:00.000-07:00

Its funny how when i keep saying "i dont wanna talk about it".I always end up talking about it to you anyways.haha.because at the end of it all you are able to make me say "im alright".

you are a miracle.

Elizabeth Bennet

2011-03-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

simply adore.

Keira Knightley was perfect for this role

one of my favs : Pride & Prejudice

Time Filling

2011-03-27T09:25:00.000-07:00

okay, so since theres a huge possibility that I may end up waiting till Sept for college to start.Im thinking of a getting a job.And my mom was telling me about this internship thing at my aunts law firm.And I thought to myself, hell yea :D At first she said that I may just end up as the unimportant coffee girl that doesnt really do much other than settle the files, do the faxing and ofcourse the coffee.But then i thought to myself, well u've gotta start somewhere right.plus im sure i'll find a way to make it work in the most fun way possible ;)

imagine this ; me sitting at my awesomely decorated desk.then walking down the hallways with a bright outfit.walking right into an important meeting and going "coffee everyone, get ur hot coffee here" in the most cheerful way.HAHAHA.plus, since I do love organizing ppl's stuff and colour coordinating things.So why not right? and omg, imagine the scandals i'd be able to dig there.Those old farts would probably think im nothing but a highschool graduate who is clueless and naive.When the truth issss, i observe e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. and who knows, just when they think i have absolutely no idea what Im doing, i may actually end up being a great help there.

kayh berangan sgt ke? HAHA.this isnt a tv sitcom.i know.damn it.screw the real world.

expectation : something like legally blonde
reality : sits alone at dull desk glued to my phone.whining on fb about how bored i am -.-" haaaaa, life XD

xo

23rd March 2011

2011-03-25T07:45:00.001-07:00

This was the date that was suppose to determine all our hard work throughout 2009 and 2010. Unfortunately it didn't turn out too well for me.The moment I got my slip i admit i was rather shocked.because i kinda expected more.but wth, as u can imagine i immediately left.Mommy seemed proud with my results.She said that if this was her results she wouldve been jumping with joy.As funny as that was, i needed more than that to comfort me.I guess because at that very second comparisons to others was the last thing on my mind.Because the only person that mattered to me was myself.And well, I juz knew that i could do so much better.Thus i ended up disappointing myself. Im not gonna lie, yes i did go home and ended up shedding a few tears.But after listening to some kind hearts and after gathering my focus in silence, I finally realized that this was a hard crash i was gonna have to pick myself up from. I mean for what its worth, this has made me more determined to work even harder.because I really wanna prove myself that i can do it.I juz need to stop thinking it and actually prove it.Dont just talk the talk right? So yea.Bitches, i fell, but im back up.

Dear Spm, if u think you can stop me from chasing my goals.you're wrong.you were juz a bump along my road.

Sincerely, new found speed driver

So for those who wonder, Im alright :) xo

SPM Results

2011-03-22T03:48:00.000-07:00

talking about it only made me feel worse.I am now all messed up in my head.i get that its not a competition, but u tell me how it feels like when you know youre not expecting much from the outcome of it all.when you know your friends are gonna do better than you.

and whats funny is that the reason why i wanna get good results, isnt even fr my future.because i already have my future planned out without needing the presence of my spm results.but right now its because i want it for my satisfaction.and knowing that i did it.thats all.and when you have braniacs around u who make it seem like its a piece of cake makes the whole situation harsher.

gaaah, tomorrow all the anticipation ends.
screw this.any questions regarding spm results shall not be entertained.

Port Dickson 2011

2011-03-21T07:36:00.000-07:00

finally, the road trip that we've been talking about fr ages.it finaly happened
zati,hani,pichu,fain isma,myra,sham,shida,bella,auni and myself.so that makes the 1o of us.and yess as u can see many of those who were suppose to be there couldnt join us unfortunately.oh well, hopefully there'll be more road trips ahead ;) heee

When The Heart Speaks

2011-03-21T07:34:00.000-07:00

1)Let’s grow old together… beginning with today.
2)Let’s work slowly with each other and build a relationship that we can both enjoy being a part of.
3)Let’s share love and understand that neither of us is perfect; we are both subject to human frailties.
4)Let’s hold each other close and whisper though the night—pledging our love, honoring our commitment.
5)Let’s encourage each other to pursue our dreams, even when we’re weary from trying.
6)Let’s expect the best that we both have to give and still love when we fall short of our expectations.
7)Let’s be friends and respect each other’s individual personality and give one another room to grow.
8)Let’s be candid with each other and point out strengths and weaknesses.
9)Let’s understand each other’s personal philosophy, even if we don’t agree.
10)Let’s lie awake long into the night sharing our innermost secrets.
11)Let’s be friends as well as lovers.
12)Let’s laugh at time and plan with each other and wonder how we ever got along without this love we’ve found.
13)Let’s never take for granted these moments that we’ve shared, but always be reminded of how intensely we have learned to live, how completely we have learned to love.
14)Let’s grow old together… and look back on life and smile.

I love you for what you are, but I love you yet more for what you are going to be.

The KDU Dato CQ Teo Debate Challenge 2011

2011-03-14T03:32:00.000-07:00

it was awesome! And this time I tried my luck at judging.it was an amazing opportunity.I finally got to see how other teams were.the ones that were awesome and also the not so good one.and damn now I know how those judges feel when u go on talking about total crap or when someone finally points out somethng that to u was such a big point.HAHA.and to my surprise I was able to judge all the way to semis.one hell of an experience huh :D

The finals was between Sri Permata (GOV) and SDAR (OPP).the win was awarded to side OPP.best speaker finals was the lil man razzaq! He also made it into the top 10 best speakers list.Awesome job dude ;) and I further found out that one of the girls from the ssp team got ranked 2nd best speaker ; aida.so proud of youuu! Its only the beginning hunneyy :)

So yea overall it was a very tiring and fun weekend.now bck to my usual dose of boredom.whooptididdledoo

morning thunder

2011-03-13T22:32:00.000-07:00

I know the world has let u down so many times
And I've been wanting to save you from that feeling of despair
But what am I to do
When I realize I can barely be that person of perfection
I only have myself to offer.I wish you could see how the world is wat I'd give
We're learning one another.I juz dont wanna be the disappointment
As the sayings for the old chucker, "I love you u, u huge stubborn pain in the ass"
U and me.as how I want things to be.past present and future.

Talk about an earthquake in my head.heh

B & S

2011-03-10T02:35:00.001-08:00

Sure people say gender doesnt matter when it comes to friendship.But honestly I have to admit, I most absolutely enjoy the company of my male friends.As a matter of fact I find guys more approachable than girls.Plus, they are always more laid back, frank and funny.They really would go all out to help you.However, fact is I still need my girls.I mean who else are u gonna spend hours in bed with just watching and gushing about the latest season of gossip girl or go out shopping with or would wanna hear the undeniable drama in your life.Sometimes, you juz need your bitches there to support you.

Life can be so occupying but hey, I hope that these girls of mine know that to me, them and the moments we have just by being us are absolutely priceless :')

One Man Show

2011-03-10T02:18:00.000-08:00

or in this case, one woman show.

this city better be ready for me.

JPJ TEST

2011-03-10T00:33:00.000-08:00

Ok so i had my final driving class on tuesday.and the test was set fr thursday.So to blow off my nerves I went to OU with zati, fawah and nia. we watched 'Sanctum'.Awesome :D sad ending though.well im not gonna say how it went here.cause then where's the fun in that ryte? ;) Nia then brought us over to have BBQ Chicken.SEDAP WEII :D but its bloody spicy.I had 4 big glasses of water.I was cryn due to the hotness.Yea everyone was laughing, including the waiter -.- Then it was straight bck home.The day went perfectly, a day out with the girls is just what I needed :')

Today.Thursday, 10/03/2011

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!!!!!!! HELL YEA!!!!

new car come to mama.

and now to break the news to the mother about PD

exceptional

2011-03-08T05:39:00.000-08:00

You're wonderful but you don't know
Can't see what's there inside your soul
Always feelin like you're not good enough
You wish you could be someone else
Sometimes you just can't see yourself
But I can see just who you are,

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

You never you think you measure up
Never smart or cool, or funny enough
Always feeling different from all the rest,
You feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in
I think you're perfect in the skin you're in
You're just perfect just how you are

In Your Eyes

2011-03-04T03:59:00.000-08:00

I see what others cannot

and though actions may speak louder than words

You have always gone unspoken

be it by your lips or by your hands

Its the words underneath that i seek to see

who u are i shall let be

And so, i stay.

From His Perspective

2011-03-01T06:32:00.001-08:00

Ok, i came across this while i was browsing thru tumblr.though it was originally taken from the actual guys blog.and oh my god, this story made me cry!

I think the most painful thing I have ever done in my life, was falling in love for my bestfriend..

Don’t get me wrong, she is amazing.. She’s has this.. this natural strive that I admired so much. Like she can do anything in life, and I honestly believe she can. If she wanted the world, it be hers. If she wanted to dance, she’d sore. What I loved most is that she could find the beauty out of anything. I remember once, we were walking in the park and we noticed a rather old couple kissing. I thought it was bit awkward honestly, but she just stared in amazement. I nudged her a tiny bit and told her it’s rude to stare. She laughed and said, “I can’t help it.. Look at the way he looks at her.. It’s the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen. And look at her, even in old age I can see why he loves her.. She’s beautiful.. I wonder if I’ll ever be that lucky. Maybe one day.” She shrugged and continued walking. And as I stared after her, I had this sudden urge just to grab her hand right there and hold her.. And just tell her she could if she was with me..
But I couldn’t..

So one day at school she ran up to me and leaped into my arms where I gladly caught her. She had the most radiating smile set across her face and her cheeks were flushed. I asked her what did I do, hoping it was me who made her smile that is.. And she laughed and kissed my cheek, “You didn’t do anything haha, the guy of my dreams just asked me to be his girlfriend! Look at what he got me!“ Ouch. I felt that hit. And even though I just wanted to sit down and think, I couldn’t let myself falter. So I squared my shoulders and stood up straight as I smiled, “That’s great, I’m happy for you bestfriend.” It must have been the best performance of life.
But that wasn’t the painful part. It hurt, but it was bearable. I was too consumed by the thought of her being happy, my own happiness wasn’t that much of an issue. No, the tormenting part came a year later.

One random night at around midnight she called me. And the moment I heard her say hello, My heart cracked. She had been crying. I couldn’t understand a single word she was saying.. She just kept rambling and sobbing about how badly she was hurting. I told her to wait for me and that I’d be there in a secon. I grabbed my car keys and hurried to her house.
I came around back to find her window open for me. I hopped right into the pitch dark room looking for her. After a moment I heard a sob escape, and there she was.. in the corner of the room holding herself tightly. I rushed up to her and held her close, telling her it was going to be alright, and that I was here for her. I held her like that for what felt like forever. Just in the dark, holding her tight against my chest, trying so hard not to cry. I had to be strong for this fragile little thing.

After awhile of hopeless crying, she fell asleep. I picked her up as I stood up. Walking over so much stuff but I didn’t think nothing of it yet. I set her down in the bed and headed for the light.
I clicked it on and shock consumed me. Everything was in chaos. Her chair was flipped on the floor, there had been a tiny hole in the wall, her clothes were every where, and in the corner I saw some broken glass. I walked over to see a picture frame smashed. I turned it over and saw a picture of her with her boyfriend. She was looking beautiful of course, and he.. he just looked so cocky and stupid. I took the picture out and tore it in half, putting her half in my wallet as I ripped the other half into a thousands of shreds. I started to clean up the glass until I noticed a bit that there was a small trail of blood on the floor, and I followed it and noticed where it led.. To the corner of the room.. where I had first found her..

No she couldn’t have. I instantly walked right over to her and slightly adjusted her to see her wrists.. and oh my god. There it was. A bit of dried blood on her arm and a handkerchief wrapped around the cut. My heart finally broke.

The fact that she had done that.. and the reason why because of some guy.. It killed me. Seeing my bestfriend, The girl I had so deeply fallen in love with, hurt herself like this. When I know I could clearly do better. When I know I would never ever hurt her. When I know this would never happen with me. Itdestroyed me..

I laid in bed beside her and held her close, dear god help her.. The next morning when I woke up I found her sitting at her desk starring at the window. I sat up and looked at her.. even in this state of depression, she still looked breathtaking.
Morning, I said. But she didn’t respond. Instead she looked down at her wrist and slightly smiled, “He cheated on me.. I just found out last night.. it’s actually been going on for a few months now aha. Funny thing is I sort of noticed just didn’t say anything.. ” That I did not know. I stood up about to apologize but she said, “You know what the worst part is? That after a year of dating, I fell in love with him. Not that bull shitted crap teens believe they’re in. No, I know I loved him…so much..” Her voice was barely above a whisper now, “I loved him. I gave him all of me.. and I wasn’t enough. Ha, I feel so… so worthless.” After awhile I asked her what she meant by ‘all of me’.

She finally turned to look at me with those sad brown eyes, “We.. I gave him me.. I gave him my first time.. We made love.. at least to me it was.. HA! Look at me, your bestfriend just made the biggest mistake of her life. I must look so stupid to you huh?!” She stood up abruptly and threw her stuff off the table at the wall.

I grabbed her, hoping to restrain her, but she was trying so hard to shake me off. “Let go of me! Get away Get away!” But I just held on tighter, even when she hit me, I just kept holding. Too determined.
She finally stopped resisting and crashed against my chest and the crying finally came again. “What did I do wrong!? All I did was love him! I gave him everything and all of me! God what happened! I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to do.” She screamed and I only held her tighter. It was the scariest part of my life.

And for the next few months, it was always like this. Her cutting herself at random times. Her screaming from the pain. Her crying to me on the phone..

The hardest part about falling in love with your bestfriend, is watching them suffer in agony over some worthless guy. And realizing just how much she loved him and knowing if you were just given the chance, she would never have to hurt like this..

EPIC

2011-02-24T10:31:00.000-08:00

Hell yea! today was awesome shit, no doubt.Had a blast with the joyahs (hzm & ron)played bowling, a lil bit of arcade, went over to KDU fr ron's debate training.Then back to catch our 9.30 pm show fr King's Speech.It was a good movie.Nothing mind blowing, but alright.quite entertaining.on a scale of 1 to 10 it was a unanimous 7.

When we got in the car we finally took 1 decent pic that was approved to be up on fb.Unfortunately though, I left my camera in ron's car when he dropped me off.And no I did not realize right down till I got the text from hazim.Sumpah bodo -.-"

Anywhoo, all of this was suppose to make up fr an amazing day.If only I didnt come home to find Dyen The Fish dead :'( yeap dear old dyen that has always been there since MAJAKA lagi.That means she was there throughout the entire journey of spm.She witnessed the hard times I had to go through fr trials and the actual thing.She gave me comfort knowing that everyday after class, there was someone waiting fr me to get bck to the dorm.She was everyones favourite.She really has been through it all.from simple old asrama fish that lived in nothing more than a bekas air.Right down to when she got transferred into this uniquely marvelous fish bowl in my new apartment.Ohh if that fish could talk, what an amazing story she would tell.

Juz out of spooks ryte, jigsaw (dzul's fish) died earlier on today aswell O.o oh well atleast i know dyen will have company in the after life.

R.I.P Dyen & Jigsaw.

we love you.

Hectic Weekend.

2011-02-21T00:10:00.000-08:00

Nice to know I made it through this weekend alive.Haha.Seriously it was hectic.Starting with debate.The national novice debate.thank god Qhem, Azzam and I got through registrations juz in time.And then the debates went on.All 5 rounds.And we got by with 4 wins (Jengka, UKM, IIU and one more I cant remember) And 1 lost against UTP.It was a split, the chair ave us the win.But the 2 panel gave us the lost.Damn it.
Anyhow we broke top 10.And eventhough we couldnt proceed as we were a composite team.It was still good to know that we still had it in us to break.And im grateful enough with the fact that I was awarded the 7th best speaker.So yea, atleast i left with something solid to hold aswell.All of this coulnt have been done if it werent fr Qhem & Azzam's help :)

Too bad I didnt get much time to bitch with ron and hazim.Oh well, hoefully we'll see each other soon. ;)

Then in addition to the debate filled weekend.I also had so much to think about fr zati's bday.Dania and I had our heads pounding on what surprise plans can we think of.Unfortunately though so many people couldnt make it :( So it didnt end up as awesome as we had planned out.haih.im so sorry zati, regardless i hope u enjoyed our lil 'concert' at red box.HAHA *lovess
And finally theres this whole booking complication with the skytrex thing.

Gaaah! somebody get me a second brain so i can think straight.

oh one last thing,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY IZZATI! :D

ALL THE BEST WISHES BABE.HELL LETS GO APE CRAZY!

LOVE U LOADSSSSSSSS,

seriously, ur the best.i couldnt have asked fr a better friend.if its one person i know that deserves to be appreciated, its u :')

Vote For Massacre By Fall

2011-02-17T08:35:00.001-08:00

Hey guys, my brother and his band (Massacre By Fall) are trynna get to perform as opening fr Asking Alexandria Live in KL.Im sure it would mean the world to him if you guys vote.And clearly it wuld mean something to me too.So yea, dear friends do like this fb post if u wanna see them perform fr the opening ;) because this post is a form of vote apparently (dont ask me why.lol) please and thank you.much love xx

http://www.facebook.com/art.entertainment123/posts/168207836560385

P/S ; before u can actually like this post.u need to like the Art.Entertainment page first.

seriously, help a friend out aite.cuz this band is currently no4 on the list.not that far from no 1.so close yet so far.

In Your Arms

2011-02-16T09:35:00.000-08:00

i feel home.

There's this thing you do to me, you keep pulling me in the right direction.Even when it feels like im being swept off my feet by a hurricane.But with u, its gravity.

Take Note

2011-02-15T00:15:00.000-08:00

u know my name, but u dont know my story.If u have something to say, dont hesitate.But before u do, u better back your shit up.Otherwise, shut the fuck up.

Hello Me

2011-02-09T07:31:00.000-08:00

Its been awhile since we've talked.
but can i ask u a question? what happened to you?
you've changed.u usually wouldnt stand fr this shit.
im juz here to remind you that above everyone else there's nobody else that u can trust more than me.Above the love u have fr any other human being, u should love me the most.and no not in the self obsessed kind of way.But keep in mind that you have your respect.
You are all about your self worth.This is something that you have seem to forgotten.
So here I am.And I'll be your bestfriend ensuring you stand even wen everything else falls.

love me,

The Continuation

2011-02-05T00:49:00.000-08:00

Whoever thought that I would actually look frward towards these public holidays.I guess cause that means more people to complete the scene :) Oh yea and these are also the pics I promised in the prev post

Hey lil bro, all the best fr new zealand aite :)

Ciggy, Alcohol, Guns.Drugs we miss u.

Brotherhood :')

The best at playing bluff (Y)

My New Fav Word ; Spontaneous

2011-02-02T21:34:00.000-08:00

Yeap, because the best things always are spontaneous.Happiness doesnt require you to plan.

From being all sad and gloomy cuz i couldnt join the girls fr futsal I became way happy when i found out that youngsters werent included fr oma's birthday dinner.

So after lunch I rang up zati and told her i'd be on my way to OU :D eventhough i was so not prepared to play futsal because of my outfit, i still played anywasy because zati lent me her MU jersey :) *no i tak murtad arsenal ehh.

It was SOOOOOOOO much fun.Goalie berjaya tuu ;)

and wen i got bck, paan gave me a call.he wanted to know if i wanted to join them (acai, aidil, aiman, hazim, mamu) lepak at rasta.Duhh obviously.With them I always have an awesome time.I mean dude, I mightve been the only girl but it wasnt awkward at all.They're like family.i feel welcomed :') if only dzul was there.then the family would be complete :)

See and it didnt require days in advanced of planning.Today is One of the highlights of this hols :) More pics are on the wayyy

Listen

2011-01-29T09:39:00.000-08:00

Thats what I've finally decide to do.
Listen.To the flaws life offers and the little perfection in that.
Listen.To the happiness life gives that most people find too small to matter.
Listen.To the tears i shed when it's all too much.
Listen.To the joy only my eyes can genuinely convey.

And im starting to love this new chapter.Sure life is never flawless.But I accept it and with the ones i love keeping me sane.I admit im in a happy place now :')

It has only been a few months, and yet im starting to see what genuine happiness could mean.And that is to be yourself and nobody else.Feel accepted in your own skin.Treat others the way you wanna be treated.And never take fr granted those you feel free to be true to :)

Zati, Dzul, Hazim, Ally, My, Hills, Chmal, Hani, Qhem, Paan, Dania, Acai, Aidil, Aiman. I know that i probably dont know some of you guys all that much.like there has got to be like so much more fr me to know.But right now its not about that.Im not rushing anyone to instantly open up to me.Hell no.haha.trust me i know how hard it is to do that.But right this second It's about the irony of how i dont even know some of you like deep down at heart and yet i feel real with you guys.Like I dont have to pretend :) Its this weird kick in the gut how comfy i am with you guys.
And right now thats what i need.people who can keep me sane and grounded.even if its not in a big number of people.And lately being surrounded by you guys has given me just that.
I feel real.

thnk you.

18th Birthday Surprise

2011-01-27T01:46:00.000-08:00

Omg where do i begin??????? :DD haha
it all started with me thinking that all my close friends couldnt make it fr the small gathering in mid.I thought i was gonna be the only girl, and the day might end up so awkward!

But thennnnnn when I showed up at Gardens Restaurant in Mid along with Dzul and Puyu.I was shocked to find that the moment i appeared at the top of the stairs there was this looooooooooooooong table with all my friends singing "Happy Birthday!" :') the 1st face i saw was ofcourse Zati's! She told me she would be in taiping!!!!!! and qhem lagi! konon ada driving test.hadoiiii.Then there was hazim, aiman, my, hani, nafis, dania, fain isma, fawah, manje, nadz, pichu, bella :') And what shocked me even more was when right there on top of the table was the cake ive been talking about fr weeks! The pink Chanel Cake!!!
no wonder mommy didnt get it fr me and asked fr a different custom designed LV bag.Cause apprently Zati and Dzul planned this all along with my mom.Yes, zati showed me the texts :') omg i cant stop tearing up.Haha

So yea the day was filled with perfect awesomness during lunch and a fun time bowling.Where nadz tercampak the bowling ball to the back HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.and where dzul yg supposely wakil sekolah at bowling dulu all the sudden couldnt play well.At the end of the game during the last throw, kantoi he wanted to score less than me to let me win -.- cause that last throw was definitely not a beginners throw.tak guna -.- HAHA

Then back home me, Dzul, Hazim, and Aiman played the card game called 'taboo' indeed it was fun ;) no worries aiman next time we kick dzul n hazim's butt :)

So all in all, all i can say is thank you and how much i love you guys.Nobody has ever done this fr me.and yes i was honestly surprised to the bones.Sorry im not good with the whole "gasp im surprised" expression :P

The LV cake from mommy

The Chanel Cake from Beloved friends :')

The girls

The boys (Where's Puyu?)

I owe you :)

My and Hani (Hills and Chmal missing in action)

ily :)

A girl couldnt have asked fr more :')

in the absence of Hills, Chmal, Ally, Aidil, Paan.

u'll be there next time :D

The Big One Eight

2011-01-24T08:44:00.000-08:00

and so its the 25th of january 2011

im eighteen. Booyah!

1st to wish : zati amer ;)
1st to call : dzulfadhli :)

i like being 18.haha

Poison

2011-01-23T23:45:00.000-08:00

Holding on and keeping it in is poison.
Opening up means allowing your scars to be seen.Feeling as if your blood is overflowing through the cut.
You feel the sting eating you up.The pain that swallows u whole.
The small droplets of thick deep red blood trickles down traveling over your skin.
It owns you.And you try to fight it.
When the truth is you should accept it.Be one with it.Because this is the process of healing.
The process that humbles you.

I would know.

Efficient Working

2011-01-18T10:54:00.000-08:00

Kecik's Surprise

2011-01-17T08:36:00.000-08:00

Yeap, we went to ssp last saturday to surprise Aliah.It was sorta belated birthday kinda thing.It was a trip Paan, Hazim and myself went on.it wasnt anything grand, but it was definitely nice :) i hope u liked it kecik. :D

then after that we went over to ou to join zati and her sister's gang to play bowling.And mann, im strating to really like bowling.not cuz im good at it (cuz i dont.i suck at it big time) but because its something fun to do with ur friends.tons of spirit and laughter.macam hazim punya style of bowling which made us all burts out laughing :P and paan yg gedik melampau.so much fr not being able to play.Yea ryte, he was awesome at it *annoying -_______________- HAHA.

so yea, i must say it was a very enjoyable day.

xo

When Super Heroes Unite

2011-01-16T12:10:00.000-08:00

Picnic.I love em :)

yea, him no diff too :)

One Spark Starts A Fire

2011-01-13T05:16:00.000-08:00

"I have a vision to make difference and its starting today"

I know what i wanna do during this hols.as soon as i get my drivers license, im gonna go visit the less fortunate.friends do save up all those unused clothes and toys, i'll collect them fr donation.please feel free to join :)
i'll keep you guys posted on where and when.

I guess i've always wanted to do this even since i was still in school, but during this hols I just was too swept away by all the leisure life has to offer.well, im back to reality.where not everyone is as fortunate.

x

Pray

2011-01-13T03:42:00.000-08:00

Fr Once, i genuinely like his song and video clip.

Kayh now i really cant wait fr him to come to KL already.i know ya'll reading this would probably think 'Oh no, another believer turned beliber -.- ' hahah.well, all i can say is that his songs are catchy.and with this song, can u blame me?

babe, pray that we get those backstage passes :P

imy

2011-01-12T08:51:00.001-08:00

where are u D?

Friendly Stranger

2011-01-12T08:42:00.000-08:00

we never were best friends.we never went to the same school.
and we only know so little about each other.
but despite all the awkward moments and weird stuff you've said, i never said you were a bad person.
so is it too late to say hey?

fact of the day ; must i lose a funny friend this way?

Tumblr

2011-01-12T08:21:00.000-08:00

My new fav site ; Tumblr

Haha.sorry folks but i think i jus fell inlove with my tumblr.
I know im abit late on all this.Org dh berzaman ada and i br trhegeh hegeh nak buat.Well, lets juz say that after reading all the ridiculously random and funny posts I realized that tumblr was the place to be.But over there all i do is reblog people's blog.So no worries, im still sticking to my blog right here where im keeping it real ;D

inmydictionary.tumblr.com

The Big L

2011-01-10T07:13:00.000-08:00

Today I finally got my hands on the wheel.And the experience was a lil like this

*driving thru the metro driving circuit*

Instructor : kayh, awak try tekan minyak sikit.
Me : huh? Tekan minyak?
Instructor : haa, awak tekan minyak.sikit je.SIKIT.
Me : ok,

*tekan minyak*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

So that was driving fr me =.=

fact of the day ; i shall await my L

She's Back

2011-01-09T07:01:00.000-08:00

I've always loved this song.And now she's editted it and turn it into a video clip.I still prefer the acoustic version though.And the video clip still needs some improvement.But that's just me,

Mia Rose people ; Let Go

Silverlining of My Cloud

2011-01-09T06:39:00.000-08:00

So i did pass my test fr the friggin computer test.But let me tell you, only very ppl know as to the real story behind the entire examination process.Lets just say that freaky mid-20 guys should not have to be the one incharge when it comes to giving tests to young girls.Especially when there's nobody else around.It wasnt like he raped anyone or whatever.HAHA.Its a small matter, but the story is just funny.And I may have made a mistake by telling my mom because now she wants to make a report O.o

Anyways, dont matter lh.What matters is that i passed with a 43.Not the best, but i just care about passing.So i can finally get to real driving.

Oh and yesterday we went to KLCC fr the edufair.And this time it actually helped.unlike the one in Mid last year.Yg tu msk lima minit keluar terus -.- but this one cleared up my mind abit about the procedures to enrol in different universities.Atleast now I know shit about what to do.
Then around 9pm after all the exhaustion, everyone parted.me, zati, her older sister, older sisters bestfriend and special friend (haha) went bowling at OU.And doesnt take a genius to tell u that I scored last.bloody fool.HAHA.But i must say so far, this was the best time ive had with people playing bowling :D i laughed my ass off alot that night.Thank u :)

So thats all there is, there isnt anymore.

driving tomorrow.ceramah 3 jam -_______________-

fact of the day ; u have to know the moments in between to get my silverlining.but boo u.its my post so i'll know it as how i know it.huh?

Driving Rubbish

2011-01-04T00:14:00.000-08:00

I've been trying to get a slot to do my computer test fr quite some time now.But the JPJ has been constantly offline.But then 2 nights ago i finally get a text from my instructor telling me that she has booked a slot fr me on Tuesday, which is today.So i was so excited because finally i can do the test now and move on to the practical part which actually consist of DRIVING.not some stupid book.Well as stupid as it is, I beriye la jgk study that night.I did the exercise book and all.tengok2 today when we went half way around the world to the computer centre.The bitchy chinese lady said my name wasnt in the system.My instructor got a shock, because she told the metro ppl to book me since Sunday.And to make things worse we couldnt do a walk in as it was full.Satu hari ni full.So we went back to the metro driving academy and nobody could do anything.kalau dekat tkpe jgk I nak ulang alik, ni? Kt hujung dunia kott.Mmg la im not the one driving.but to be in that red kancil that plays non stop melayu nonsense kinda songs.Haiyo! So now im booked fr Thurs.we'll just see what happens then.

Apparently Im not the only one who has gone through this sort of rubbish.Others have too.And when they throw a fit, the chinese lady says to complain to the JPJ because even they dont know whats going on.

i mean the government should really think about it you know.you cant have all of these people working under you and not know what they're doing.dah tau if the end and beginning of the year there are tons of SPM leavers who are eager to take their license, back up la.you cant afford having people going around complaining about you guys being offline and having staff that are just as clueless.we need to feel like we're in good hands.

haii, if this thurs doesnt work out.I tak tahu la,

PLKN intake-1

2011-01-02T06:18:00.000-08:00

My dear friends who have been chosen to attend this 3 month program, I wish u nothing but the best.I wont deny the fact that if I myself was selected I'd be balling my eyes out right now.But thats juz me, im sure u guys are much better than that.Haha.be strong and try to make the best out of it.Remember, the most important thing is to have fun.All these new experiences will bring u much joy and new friends.May be a little rough at first.But like how boarding school made us tougher, this will be no different :) Us, your friends who care, will try and visit those we feel reachable.And will most absolutely be here to celebrate when you get out.Lovesss

primarily ; HILDA MOHD HANAFI
msg : be good over there.remember what i said ; it'll be worth it.when you get out people will note the fact that nobody will wanna mess with a girl who can handle a gun ;) macho kot.nnt kt sana jgn gedik sgt.tough sikit.ngeheh.ilysm, wl miss ya loads.

02012011

2011-01-01T22:37:00.000-08:00

Its the second day for this new year. So far its alright.
We(zati, my, dania and myself) spent the countdown over in town.walked around pav.watched gullivers travel.and fyi, yes it is funny as hell.I don't get why people say its stupid -.- anywho.as the sun started to set, we were joined by zati zohari & adma.which made it all the more fun.we decided to head towards the moshpit at where the stage was located.and let's just say that things started getting a lil bit too crazy.people were shoving andd shouting.then all of the sudden I think god was seriously being kind when he decided to bring azim alimin and his cousin izat into the picture.I swear, if it wasn't fr them we'd be stuck in that mess all night long.we wanted to go back to marriott but all the roads were closed.like wtf, but thnk god azim led us to civilization.HAHA.dude the next time u come down to kl, wl blanje u aite :) then after much rest at the hotel ayie decided to join us.all in all the night ended with a late mcdonalds supper and truee exhaustion.but hell, it was worth it ;) phewh, talk about coincidences.lol

Btw : wahai budak budak SBP SELAMAT PULANG ke sekolah MUAHAHAHAHA :DD

Goodbye 2010

2010-12-30T08:51:00.000-08:00

im not sure about the clock on my blog.but as fr the clock in the real world right here in KL its already the 31st of December 2010.

Thinking back on this year, I know that I've learnt so much.But above all it made me learn the power of your mind.The mind is an amazing thing.When you have the will to control it, you'll be fine no matter what.Whenever my body and emotions just felt like I couldnt do it anymore, my mind kept on saying "one step at a time.just keep pushing" and so thats what I did.Through spm, matters of the heart and everything about future reference ; my mind kept me focused in ensuring that I dont get sidetracked.Thus allowing me to survive in one piece right down to the very last day of 2010.I admit 2009 was a much harder year fr me.But every year has its deed to offer right,

New years resolution
work out
get a job
join some beneficial class like kickboxing or baking
learn how to not be disfunctional with the guitar
apply fr an awesome uni fr law

"freedom is here.Watch out bitches"

xo
merr of 2010

Some Things Just Never Change

2010-12-30T02:20:00.000-08:00

and Im glad.The lobbyist, I'll never understand how we manage to make a proper conversation without any confusion going on.Haha, ilapyous

Crime Scene : MSN (now you know why I dont like MSN -.- )

Allysha says: merr.main bowling jom, heee.bosan
merr says: wen? haha.i tak terer la.but i love bowling.so wen?
Allysha says: hahahahahhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, i mean kat msn

Allysha is inviting you to start All Star Bowling. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?

merr says: -.-
Allysha says: hehe

that invite couldve been what was suppose to be the highlight of my day.NOW i feel like a loser.Lol

fact of the day ; missing u cheeky monkey

Woody, You Legend You

2010-12-26T02:32:00.001-08:00

So we got super bored and decided to take a stroll in Toys R Us.As we took our own sweet time just joking about the toys around, we came to the board game section.Then we came across this psychic ball thingy.You know one of those things where you ask a question, shake it, then an answer will appear.Yea well this one was slightly different.It was a Toy Story 3 edition.Instead of shaking, you have to pull the string at the back and Woody's voice will come out with a prediction.
So here's our little scenario;

Dzul ; *huge grin on face* Am I hot?
Psychic ball : even if you could fly in the sky the answer would still be...............................NO!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.I burst out laughing my ass of.It was hilarious to hear woody's voice making such a statement.And plus the irony of Dzul expecting a "hell yea" so much.Dudes, his expression was priceless when Woody said a loud bold N.O. (macam harapan jatuh pecah berkecai LOL)

tu laaaaa :)

xo

24 December :)

2010-12-25T00:05:00.000-08:00

It took me quite awhile to think of what to do for his birthday.Ive been planning and planning.But with the help of Aiman & Aidil, I realized that spontaneous planning is the way to go.I hope u enjoyed our little surprise ; being thrown with eggs, flour and being thrown into the pool seems really fun.When its done to others :P

Dzulfadhli Happy 18th Birthday!!!!
all the best wishes.Enjoy making fun of me while you can, because u and me there's only a month of difference.Big Whoop.Haha.
I'll be joinining you on the legal side soon.
God you're annoying, but what can I say.
I love you :)

fact of the day ; thanks Aidil & Aiman.I owe u guys :) and as fr u, try and get back at me :P

Sri Aman's prom 2010

2010-12-22T22:10:00.000-08:00

Yup, I came back for the prom (theme : New York) .Steff & Sarah insisted, and I must say I owe them :) Being there made me feel like a sri aman-ian all over again.It was nice to be able to just chill with freinds whom i have not seen fr god knows how long.And man was I glad to see Reen.Kita since stndrd 6 weii *hearts* And ofcourse steff, tiqi, juju, sarah, lydiya and so many more.Ive missed you guys.

All the hassle was worth it I guess.Well duh, to think that I was in a rush to get ready after coming back from driving school.Half an hour only! not bad huh.Heh

I couldnt have asked fr more :)

miss best dressed, sarah.bitch, it so was the hair.haha, ily :)

The whole sri aman Lot.

Caprice as the local act.

Steff, Juju, Reen.

Hey Friend

2010-12-20T08:17:00.000-08:00

I've got your back.Breathe woman Breathe.Haha,

Stay Alert

2010-12-20T08:06:00.000-08:00

Yea, that's exactly what I shouldve done while I was making my way to the toilet in Gardens.While I was in a world of my own, little did I know *gasp* I was walking half way through into the men's toilet! -.- And to make matters worse, it wasnt until this man walking in the opposite direction giving me a weird look that i realized "holy crap, Im in the wrong bathroom!".So I bolted out and ran to the women's toilet before anyone else took notice.If tak, malu nak mati!

So that's my wake up call to actually be aware and alert of where im going.And as for tomorrow, well I would probably literally need a wake up call.Cause It's the 1st day of driving school! And that means waking up at 8am AND staying awake during the 5 hour talk.Oh mann.I know Ive always been excited to drive, but I never said I adored the process towards getting my license.

Btw, I found this.makes u reminisce doesnt it ;

xo

Balanced Thoughts

2010-12-19T10:06:00.000-08:00

So I came back to a recommendation of a vid.It viewed a video about this malay guy admitting to the world he's gay.Staring at the screen, so much thoughts came running through my mind.It was like a flash of confusion.It was a mix of two mainly.I mean seriously ;

1)as a free thinke, i have much respect fr this guy.there actually is nothing wrong with being gay when u think about it in a human way.its nature.like u cant deny certain feelings u have, fr all u know there are tons of guys around u who are gay.its juz a matter of following that feeling or not n leading it into actions.but still.since being gay is defined as having feelings fr d same male gender than in that case tak kisah la tunjuk ke tak.if u have feelings.then ur gay.Its like they say.its the same like being born left handed or right handed.its a right i think some need to learn to respect

2)However, as a muslim.obviously i find his confession disgusting.he shouldve taken the time to think about his obligation as a malay n a muslim.i personally dont believe that rights literally exist in parallel with religion.Sure religion implies fairness.but hey nothing's fair in life.n a religion is a lifestyle

So there u go.My POVs as a free thinker and as a muslim.Yea i have to always think of which to go with in life. its like juggling n keeping a balance really (:

fact of the day ; u really do give me something to think about.haha,

Day 1

2010-12-18T09:29:00.000-08:00

Yup this is day 1 with friends, out enjoying what freedom really has to offer.ive been in aussie fr the 1st week of life, so yea guess i missed out on quite much.Its about time I got back n show that I still exist, heh.

Bloody hell, my cam's being a bitch.Cant upload the pics from aussie.Ahh, I'll figure it out.As fr now this will have to do (: lovess

in the pic ; fain.fawah.zatil.bella.moi (: myra.zati.hills.hani
taken by ; daniel
shouldve been in the pic ; dania.meown.azin.daniel n his friends afaz & posto.

aite, cheerios.gtg smbng my joyah session with hazim.wers ron btw? O.o

australia bound

2010-12-12T21:08:00.000-08:00

Kayh so I got the internet working on my phone.but the bbm won't budge.apparently only australian made blackberrys can use bbm here -.- yea, real convenient genius.haha.the stuff here is awesome.the cotton on is friggin huge and complete :D and to make thngs better my walking santa claus has finally arrived :P ngee,

Lovesss,

As I Close The Final Chapter

2010-12-09T06:38:00.000-08:00

WOOOOHHHHOOOOOOOOO!!!
After 11 long years, Im finally done.
So Long Suckers!!! HELLO FREEDOM :DD

yeaha, dh dapat sijil berhenti sekolah kot *sweetness*

fact of the day ; as of tomorrow I'll be Australia bound till the 16th.Miss me :P

F.O.L Brownies ;)

2010-11-18T23:03:00.000-08:00

Aww, nobody has ever done this fr me :') and no its not hard as hell.no, it doesnt taste burnt.teehee.Thank u :) imy already loser :)

fact of the day : u'll get used to it soon.

Its Almost over

2010-11-15T03:27:00.000-08:00

These memories are mine to keep till the end;

The lucky draw winner.surprisesurprise

Dyen aint light yea, just so we're clear (:

Obviously I was happy over my ice cream (:

My *Kachang and I go way back when ;)

MAJAKA 2010

Hunny bun *hearts

And ofcourse the art of living in a boarding school :DD (from left : Chmal, Sham and urs trully)

The Social Network

2010-11-14T10:31:00.000-08:00

I literally just finished watching the movie and ironically right before I came here to blog this in, the 1st hing I did was logged onto my facebook.
And damn I've gotta give extreme credits to Mark Zuckerberg.He's the man!
And I must say seeing his character played by Jesse Eisenberg, made me decide that based on this particular movie, Mark is officially one of my most absolute favourite character.Friggin Epic :)
Fr those of you who are totally clueless of what Im talking about.Well here's a little inside scoop ;

The Social Network is a 2010 drama film about the founding of the Internet social netwroking website Facebook and the resulting lawsuits.The film was directed by David Fincher and features an esemble cast-Jesse Eisenberg, Andrew Garfield, Justin Timberlake, Brenda Song And many more.

It also shows the conflict faced by Mark (founder of FB) and Eduardo Saverin (Co-Founder of FB).Also many interference made by Sean Parker.

*Thought it should be noted that this is a movie, so obviously the entire story line aint a 100% true.Hah.

neverthe less, Mark Zuckerberg; U are a genius!

signed,
FB addict :)

Hear Me

2010-11-14T07:15:00.000-08:00

I cant promise you a perfect relationship together, without arguments over our differences & trust issues, but what I can promise you is that as long as your trying I'm staying

fact of the day ; You're the smoke to my high :)

Nothing Much, But a Hell Lot

2010-11-13T09:42:00.000-08:00

The rest of them school kids went back yesterday.The form fivers figured that it was best if we stayed a few days extra to catch up on some studying.I only stayed till today (fr 1 night).But the feeling of being in school when it is literally absolutely empty IS fun.
But to tell u the truth what got embedded in my memories the most is when I woke up and chilled at Hilda's dorm on her bed with her & Zati, Ntah la, it juz felt so sad to know that in a few weeks time we wont be able to do this.In a few weeks time, it'll be almost impossible to be updated with each other on every single shit we go through.In a few weeks time, we're gonna have to learn to survive alone.The only form of help then would be our phones.There'll be no more sudden runnings to your friends room crying and getting immediate help.Haih.
All in all, It really wasnt much.I mean imagine this scenerio ; me dgn baru bgn tido nye crashing on the bed trying to infect zati & hills with my smell :P HAHA.so i crammed ryte in the middle.Then there we layed the three of us.gossiping.as usual :) it may be stupid to others.But to me, to be there uninterupted with my 2 bestfriends, it was priceless.haa, ilytwo :)

fact of the day ; the final chapter is ending soon.

Where The Heart Is

2010-11-13T05:53:00.000-08:00

I must say, the f1 & f2s really impressed me this time.You guys did a fantastic job at putting together the farewell party.And boy oh boy did we have fun :) Haha, alahai.u guys know ily ;)

Its a pity that we didnt have much time to properly plan things out.so we had to face the absence of the teachers and ofcourse our beloved coach, meor :) Last but not least ; long live The SSP Rascals :)

signed,
ex-captain

01 November 2010

2010-11-05T05:07:00.000-07:00

Yea, it seems abit late to be writing this.But never the less,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DYEN :)

Haha.Better late than never.hope u had a blast with the cake and food and stuff.And Im especially sure that u wont forget this birthday due to our lil chicken incident in the hall the day after! LOL.Terbaik weyh :)

So, all the best wishes.Hope u liked my pressie.And last but not least, ily eventho u're gedik to the extreme :P

xo

fact of the day ; will upload the vid that Hilman made fr u soon.I just need to figure out how the hell do i save it 1st.God, im such a noob -.-

Get A Piece Of Mind

2010-10-30T11:21:00.000-07:00

You're so weird.Its so unacceptable when you treat a person like shit based on 2 oh so valid reasons;

1)because of how others perceive them as.
2)when that perception taken by the public is an invalid perception.

So fr you to just go with where the wind takes you, in this case, really just shows that not only are you very unfair but your a dimwit too -.-

We should allow ourselves to give others the chance by being neutral.Thenn you make your choice of what you wanna think.The least you can do is save yourself some dignity and have a piece of mind of your own.No room fr blind prejudice here hun.

if you didnt like me then, you're gonna hate me now.Lol,

Hippos

2010-10-20T01:14:00.000-07:00

I never thought that such fat animals would catch my attention.HAHA

During English Class.

Merr : U know what, it's so ironic how im close to people who enter spelling bees, and yet I cant even spell elaborate. (note : i used to spell it 'illaborate' -.- )
Dyen : hahaha, laa.Spelling is hard kot.
Merr : Kan? but that's the thing with me.Ive always had an issue with spelling.Dari kecik lg i xtau nak spell hippopotamus.
Dyen : haha, how do u spell it? H-I-P-P-O-P-A...errr...??
Merr : i think it's H-I-P-P-O-P-A-T-A..err..??
Dyen : no la.its H-I-P-P-O-P-A-T-E..
Merr : Huh? no..haiyo.its H-I-P-P-O-P-O..ntah la.
Dyen : ..actually kn.bkn dye Hippotatamus ke??
Merr : ......HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.NOO!!
Dyen : eh you jgn gelak bnyk eh! u suck at spelling too!
Merr : dude, atleast I know the word.Hippotatamus! HAHAHAH
Dyen : HAHAHA :P
Sham : ya Allah diorg due nh -_________-

fact of the day ; yea i googled it, and its spelled Hippopotamus :) what complex animals they are.

Save Me From Myself

2010-10-16T10:26:00.000-07:00

Im hopeless.Yea, Ive got issues.
Im the problem with no solution.
Im a friend of my own.
I dont need your help.
I dont need your sympathy.
I've been standing alone fr the past 17 years, i can do it fr longer.
Im done making excuses.
I'll survive with these bruises.
This is all like a pill.Instead of making me better its making me ill.

fact of the day ; Im done having a heart.Let me be bionic.

Of Glamorous 5 Inches & Meow Poses

2010-10-09T23:44:00.000-07:00

Malam Selingkar Kasih 2010

Dear Hermanas ily :)

the night was simply spectacular.Even when I forgot the fact that it was my turn to sing.I ended up there on stage smiling and juz skipping a few lines of the song.And continuing the lyrics as if those forgotten lines were never suppose to be there.HAHA.infront of 800 people I smiled my way through.Well according to most eventhough I felt like dying up there with the spotlight and wanting to hide away in embarassment, apparently most of those who dont know the song wouldve juz thought that it was how the song went.THANK GOD.gulp.

Right as fr the rest.Let the pics do the talking

During Rehersals

Foxy cleopatra can kiss her sorry ass goodbye xD

my other half :)

Dont Stop Believing :D

Qhem was all Barbie (pretty !)

Mama Nia

Mariposaaaaaaaaaa (adik qhem, fatin)

Hermanas 0610

fact of the day ; This only comes once in every girls life.And its worth the wait.

much credits to zati fr the marvelous pics :)

xo

Penilaian Menengah Rendah

2010-10-02T23:54:00.000-07:00

Aliah, Wan, Azura and MC

My dear rascals ; LuckLuck :)
All the best.I want 8As yea.Ala, korg kan pandai :P Haha.no, seriously fr u guys 8As kacang lh (:
lovesss

This One's For You P (:

2010-10-02T09:08:00.000-07:00

Everybody needs inspiration.Everybody needs a song.

Maybe not exactly.Maybe what most of us need is just a 2nd chance.
Us humans, we get confused.We get carried away with so many things.Forgetting those priceless moments that's right infront of our own eyes.So maybe only in efforts of damage repair, might we get that 2nd chance.

In this context, i mean ; trust.

Giving your trust to a person, is like giving all you have to offer.Its as if you've unraveled everything, leaving you with no disguise.Left there naked, well metaphorically, duh.Its probably the hardest thing one can give to a person.It takes time.A hell lot of time.And once its broken.You feel betrayed, embarrassed and vulnerable.A bullet through the evils chest wouldnt even cut it.Its hard giving a person his 1st chance, what more a 2nd.
It seems almost impossible.
Almost.

When you turn the tables around.And find that you're the betrayer, and its time to repent.A little effort isnt even close to what you've gotta do to make it up to the person.But its worth a shot.So in the process, learn to understand that you need to take it step by step.Good things come to those who wait? u tell me.Bare in mind that more less your rights in demanding, well lets juz say that that ship has long gone sailed away.You lost the first chance.This isnt your game anymore, we dont play by your rules.Note that its not juz the persons trust your trying to win over anymore.Its also your trust issues on the line.Can you trust yourself to make this ride worth it? Think about it.

But by the end of the day.Well, following my personal principle; Yes these words spoken are to be thought about thoroughly.However, dont go all crazy over-thinking things.Try and go with the flow a little.No point in fretting about the future if you dont take time to smile and appreciate the present.Cuz exaggerating the future, seriously? with that attitude, there will be no future -.- make the present work, and everything will fall into place.

P ; In whatever decision you make, u noe im there.If its a good one, i wanna throw the celebration party :P If its a bad one, I'll be ur shoulder to cry on.Ala, senang criter.Ive got your back aite (:

xo

MILO :D

2010-10-01T00:39:00.000-07:00

As its time to leave the dining hall.I was longing fr my kuih.HAHA.yup, like it or not I was so upset the fact that I xdapat my kuih.bak kata sham slalu la kan.budak gemok -.-

But anywayz, as I was in the mids of whining, *milo came up to me

Milo : merr, nak milo tabur.nak milo tabur!!! :(
Merr : Haha, hmm.jom ah, gy cafe.i pun nak find something else to eat.
Milo : GASP! boleh ke gy cafe at tjis time?? cuak ni
Merr : dude, are u serious?? -.- chill la.
Milo : you jgn.I tk pernah buat kot.
Merr : HUH?? are u kidding me? u mean to tell me that u've never been to the cafe after DM time??
Milo : nope.is it even legal??
Merr : Well, its illegal.but under certain circumstances and considering how everyone does it, its more less legal now :P
Milo : OK :D

As we reach the cafe

Merr : Milo, welcome to the life at the cafe after DM time
Milo : *in awe* Wowww.so many people?
Merr : yup
Milo : Gasp! Even juniors??
Merr : Even juniors.Haha.My god this is hilarious.Im honoured to be the 1st person to give you this experience.Lol, dah la dah nak kluar skola dah.hadoii -______-
Milo : Hehe, thank u merr :)

So yea, its funny how once you're in your final year in school and u think that everyone in your batch has done everything there is to be tried.Someone comes around and takes u by surprise over the most little thing.Milo, I hope u liked your milo tabur :D lovess

fact of the day ; her original name has been changed due to a few safety reasons.HAHA

I Keep Smiling

2010-09-28T02:49:00.000-07:00

Its funny how u talk crap all the time.bitching bout others must be the only thing u know on how to start a convo.Going around saying things with no reason to support.They juz come out of thin air, or even worse they come out of your imagination.Haha.Its about time you move on.Holding grudges dont get any cooler these days.Why are you still bringing up on the wins and loss of debates we've been through and how each and every one of them were deliberated.
Newsflash! I dah retire dah pun from the highschool debating scene.Haha.Dah dah la tu.

My word of advice to U & to those who might find this useful ;

Dont bitch about others if you cant handle the pressure of being bitched about.Talk is cheap hunny.Its time we face the truth.If you can talk the talk, you better learn to walk the walk.
This world is circle.What goes around, comes around.

I've always been very forgiving towards people like you.I dismiss these issues and smile.Cuz i know its not worth my time.Those who are close to me know who I really am.And that's all that matters.

But if I ever see your face again once school is over.Especially during debates.My advice ; You better watch your back.

Have fun :D

We Are Family

2010-09-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

That's why we annoy the shit out of each other & still Love each other Big time.

this just gets weirder by the minute

lovess,

Before The End

2010-09-18T02:51:00.000-07:00

Arigato Zati fr the inviTaSion *bajet french -.- My stomach found happiness at ur place.Haha.Me & my 2nd helpings.hahaha.yummm :) It was fun to juz catch up after not seeing each other awhile.Lol.

But it was abit funny, cuz I felt so awkward by the fact that I was the first non-family member to arrive.But soon before long.Aidil & Aiman came.Lifesaversss :D HAHA.Then along came Hills, Dania & Daniel.ChitchatChitchat, Rumour of the day ; word has it I think Im sooo hot to the extend that I actually think that all boys want me -.- HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.That gave me a good laugh.Dudes, of all the things I think I am.I so dont think Im hot.But if u wanna continue thinking so, then be my guest haha.u want me :P Pfft.

Oh damn besok balik.Then trials.Noooooooooo *dramaqueen xD

Kiddy Fun Feel Meal

2010-09-17T12:22:00.000-07:00

or rather known to many as "Happy Meals".yea, dont ask me why my brother thought of that instead of the standard one that is generally known.

Of random thots and weird expressios ;
Gasp! look out for the blebleble.

Yeaha, Im that Highhhhhh :D

Lets juz chill & die.

Hurt me & I'll hunt you down.And go bang bang boom! XD

choochoo shooooeeeeee!

fact of the day ; lessthanthree :) missing my bitch already :( haha.

Its Not a Game

2010-09-16T03:28:00.000-07:00

Do I remind you of the pain that you've been through.Is that the reason I'm to blame, Is that why I stand accused? Protecting yourself from somebody else? I'm not who's hurting you.
Sometimes it kills me inside knowing you compare me to what may happen.
I know its us being open and discussing.But its as if Im your doubt.Always guilty before the sin.I cant win.
What can I do to make it clear that Im serious and its no longer a game.I open up, I give u my heart.But baby I refuse to pay for something I didn't do.I refuse to stay paying for others mistakes.

Its hard to trust, I understand.But dont let the chances tear us apart.
This isn't fair.It hurts like hell

ily.

fact of the day ; count in yesterday and that makes it the 3rd time

Me

2010-09-15T13:51:00.000-07:00

I dont measure up.Im not worthy.
I never thought it'd be this painful.

One Hell Of a Day

2010-09-15T01:18:00.000-07:00

Woke up early to get ready to run a few errands with a friend.Then it was straight off to Paan's open house.The moment we arrived I wanted the world to open up and swallow me whole.There were so many guys from Paan's school.I mean usually I wouldnt care, but I guess its cuz I was the only girl and plus seeing their faces the moment I walk in? Yea, not my idea of instant comfort.Oh well, the feeling soon faded away.We were all to busy talking too bother.Throughout all it was fun :D chilling and feeling all stress free is the best gift the hols can give :) Thanks Paan & Acai fr the invite :)

Paan, Mozack and Dzul
:)

will take u out fr tutti frutti aite (:

QamiiiiiiiLa :D Aiman, Aidil and Dzul.

Then it was back home & back to the Joyah Channel.Where gossips are hot and random thoughts are at its weirdest :) With your host ; joyah no 1, no 2 and no 3 XD HAHA

A few notes to take down :
1)Ron can basically do it anywhere anytime.He'll tell u the pros and cons of each experience.Lol
2)Hazim likes it at the beach (with all the sand?? O.o ) or the couch.during half-time -.-"
3)And Merr juz wants it to be easy to clean :D suggestion received ; dining table.HAHA.i'd like to see the convo heading towards that one.

All the way down to 5am.I was done and ready fr bed.Nvrthe less, I love u two joyahs La.Hadoi.Lol

xo

3 Days Down

2010-09-12T11:57:00.000-07:00

Damn, three days down and a few more to go.All these open houses sure have got me tired.
Today's was uncle yeh and aunty ara's.It was fun as usual.They never fail at making us have an awesome time :) Anywayz, I came back home and realized that my lil sister Lani added me in facebook.Aww.dang I miss her & Ayden.So hell yea I approved.Its been way too long.U know, it's at times like this that I absolutely love facebook.Haha.And the cutest part was when I went through a bunch of their pics.They've grown.No doubt.And Ayden looks exactly like daddy.Dangg.Oh well, genes sure have a way of working things out huh.Lol

Oh crap, besok ada tuition -.-

All this raya food has gone to my head!

xo

Raya

2010-09-11T00:58:00.000-07:00

Dear Chuck,

If you're reading this.I juz wanted to say Thank You.

And to all, Happy Raya.
Maaf Zahir & Batin.
Loads of love, urs trully ;)

fact of the day ; i wanted to post this yesterday.But the bloody iPad decided to go crazy -.-

Existance

2010-09-08T13:42:00.000-07:00

Hey world, if you've forgotten, her name's ameera natasha moore.
And she still exists.

Get It

2010-09-07T05:54:00.000-07:00

The Bliss Of Awkwardness

2010-09-06T07:22:00.000-07:00

A day at the TTDI Library was actually, productive? haha.I know its a library and all and ur meant to be productive there.But idk, something diff today.Lol.Studied with Hazim & Paan.Had a long fully elaborated heated debate with Paan about whether I should join him and his ex-skulmates.I didnt wanna go.He insisted.(bukan paksa la konon :P ) He went into this whole blurr about taking risks, ignoring awkwardness, making new friends, and all of sudden something about GOD.HAHAHA, *drama queen.

We then went to OU.Hazim & I walked around and chilled abit.After that, we found out Zati, Dania & AD were around too.Went up to meet them.On the way, we bumped into more people we knew (including Steffiqa :DD mann its been too long woman!) Then as we arrived.More people that some of us mutually knew were sitting directly behind Zati's table.Kecoh lagi.Left the restaurant, jumpe lagi orang.A whole day of bumping into people.Some of which I knew, some of which I didnt.
Its a small world hunny, so dont come up here & talk to me about awkwardness.Who knew it had some form of bliss to it.Teehee ;)

fact of the day ; arigato Hazim & Paan fr temaning me at the library :)

Merr Adores These People :)

2010-09-04T00:41:00.001-07:00

credits to Ms Izzati Amer Hamzah and the rest of the Photographers (sorry couldn't keep track.)

When It was The 31st of August

2010-09-02T19:05:00.001-07:00

Malaysia celebrated it's independance day.

And We accept the Birth of Merdeka Babies All over.

So yea.

HAPPY BELATED 17th BIRTHDAY HAZIM! :)

Faker

2010-09-02T19:01:00.001-07:00

You're so fake.Give it up already.u claim that losers aren't your thing? go figure.You are one.So it's like your thing and you don't want anyone to steal it right? I get it.Totally understandable.Im done trying.You think it was easy for me to lower my ego just to give it a go.I realized at some point it was my fault.I even said sorry.But I guess you're too big for that.Dude, I knew you way before.And now you think you're Mr.popular, Mr.BigShot.You think you have all the friends in the world.Puh-lease.You don't even know the meaning of friends.Trynna be all cool on facebook.Putting up a front like you're all that.Infront of many you act like we're tight.When we're out of the scene, im nobody ryte.Seriously, who you putting a show on for? who's the display for? It's pathetic.

Save Me

2010-08-28T11:22:00.000-07:00

I love to be by myself.I hate to be alone.
So where are you when I need you the most?